Spell Holidays!

There goes another short weekend spent with darling.
There was a tweeny bit of unpleasent incident this week, well, i am so gald that we resloved it :) Sorry darling, made you dead worried for me that day.
We went to xiao shuai ge's place for steamboat, it was suppose to be some sort of gathering for the alrite clique. Thanks xiao shuai ge for the sumptous steamboat!



It was Happy Birthday Renee on the friday. We had a simple dinner with her, i hope you enjoyed urself that day nee! Sorry couldn't join u girls at mos :( Well, i love my girls. Holidays are here, i so hope that i can do some catching up with them.


Celebration for paper-free on thursday with class clique :D Which marks the end of my poly yr 2 semester1 :))) 3 more semesters to go & im able to leave this idiotic school.
We went to mahanntan fish market for lunch. The food was good, comparable to fish&co.


Random. He is trying to act creative.


Darling, i can totally understand what u're going through right now.
Don't ever have the thought of being gulity, useless and bad okay.
Love is viewing an imperfect person perfectly :)
I know you tried your best, in giving all your love, spending some quality time with me and giving me nothing but the best.
Your ns journey gonna be tough, but we'll go through it tgt :)

Darling, thank you for everything. I really enjoyed my every weekend with you. Thanks for the piggyback run, your sacastic statements, your hugs and kisses, your surprise smses & everything. I am so gonna anticipate to your POP, which is 10days away! I love you, recruit chua!

I am gonna be so free, somebody pls date me out?

Great weekend :)

Edited.

Had a great day with Darling :) First up was popeye's, then starbucks, carrefour, fireworks and hk cafe with the rest of the clique. The fireworks was amazing & definately sweet with Darling's presence :) Aftermaths, bobby came down & drove us home. Thanks bobby.

I like this shot!


I am totally in love with this silly boy!
Darling, we'll definately watch the fireworks together for the years to come :)

Jaselin's bf, Darling's hyung, Show Ang

On the friday night, it was a great catching up session with Marvin Serene & Desmond.
I still rmb vivdly, the times when we used to hang out together uring secondary school days.
A last minute decision to head down to mos to club.
Join the girls, as well as sha vicky jeff jx. Had a great clubbing night with my 2groups of friends.


Serene!


Desmond, Happy 21st bd bro!


Marvin & Desmond.

The randoms.

Loves :)

Today's paper was not good. Just pray hard that i still can get a border line pass.

Headed down to Bishan with Erica. And guess who i bumped into? Vicky's mum!

Its has been awhile since i last saw her. We went for lunch tgt :DDD

You know, sometimes i really hope that she is my godmother, haha.

I promised to date her out to lunch the next time :)

I got to get back to my stupid books again.

Im going to catch up with all my friends after the exams :)

Please date me out after 28th Aug :D

I love Jason. He is the sex.

The best days in my life ...

There is no doubts that secondary school days are the best days in my life. Those playful days, true friendships, tons of laughters and tears, those times we mug hard together. I was browsing through the photos and videos, tears and emotionals are inevitable.





The dirty & messy classroom, most probably the dirtiest classroom in the school.
The pretty noticeboard that me and my girls put up, the classroom toilet doors we painted.



The lapsap gang. My beloved lapsap leader who brought so much laughters into our class.
He sacrificed alot, by eating expired biscuits, drinking water with menstral pill, underwear in his bag. Haha.



My lovely girlfriends who helped me during the times i need them. Invading into my room to lock up all the doraemon's stuff when i was a failure in love. Encouraging me to never give up myself.



My 16th birthday. With all my friends gathering at bishan161. Despite its just a simple birthday party, but it was the most memorable one.



Back to reality, everyone is pursuing their future at different aspects. Some of us are as close as before, some drift away. But the 5a attitude will be always there.
Once a amksian, always a amksian :)
I love them all.

Emotional week

Was going throught this emotional week without darling by my side. Well, he was trying his best to survive through his field camp as well. Was very gald that he came back in one piece without losing his precious rifle. Definately had a great time during the pathetic weekends with darling. We caught a movie, dined at hk cafe, gelato, singing session in his room. Should i post all your master pieces on my blog? Haha.
I always hope that, time will slow down for us whenever we're spending the day tgt.
I hope things gonna be better after his pop, which falls on our 2nd month as well :D



I made a book for him, recording down every single day of thoughts during his field camp.
Well, darling, are u touched? are u moved to tears? U better be! Haha.



On friday afternoon, it was a cupcakes session over at verlynn's place.
Sorry jas & kat, your cupcakes are turning mould by now. Next time!
Friday night, ju and verlynn came and join me at darling's place :)



I pinned up my hair, wear that dumb glasses, to surprise him at his doorstep.
Now, he is asking me to pin up my hair everyday because he likes it.



His zhao pai mian. Haha. It tasted nice, but i have indigestion after that. Haha.



I came acrossed this and i almost fainted. Hopefully xueting rmb the password or email to this account. I totally, forgotten about everything.


to darling:
Darling, im so sorry. It hurts me so bady, to see your disappointed & painful face. This is the first time i see you reacting this way, i'll never want to see that face again. The last thing i would ever do, is to hurt you darling. You can blame it on my mischeive or that lousy character of mine. Me either, not willing to lose you over something so small. That day, your hugs and kisses made everything so much better for me. Darling, thank you for trusting me :) I love you kuku, i really do.

Its always so difficult to get used to my mundune lifestyle after the weekends. I'll always anticipate to weekends, cabbed down to braddell heights estates, spent all the time i have with darling. Its back to weekdays again :( All i got to face is my laptop, my books. Exams are nearing, and i totally loathe it.

I miss alrite clique! Meet up soon :)
Up next, Meetup with pema, Exams, Sg flyer and popeye with darling! :D

Happy Anniversary Darling.

I was quite stunted and elated,










to received this,









in the morning.







Sunflowers!


that comes with, a box of present.



from my dearest darling, whom is at at faraway tekong having his field camp right now!



Darling, im v v v touched, by the gifts and the card. You silly boy!
I received ur rochers! Instead of the sms one, u bought me the real ones :)

Like what i told you, the best gift for our anniversary is that you keep urself safe and survive throught ur field camp!
I'll be awaiting to 12 midnight every single day, to read ur pre written 6days blog posts for me, all the way until friday when you book out.



Tell me, do i have a choice now?
Right now, i can only choose to love you, or to love you even more.


tags
verlynn: love, thanks for supporting me all the way. Well, same goes to u and juju :) loves
aaron: spell error. Haha.
kat: :) yea, of cos! thanks anyway. Facial soon?
jas: :)
queen: hi, im using adobe photoshop cs3 and picasa2
hamberg: link me ilham.
nee: what sia! haha.
jason: im already missing you darling :( thanks for everything.

This is for you Darling, i'll be waiting for you. //Edited.

Darling, like what you mentioned, considering the circumstances of how we met and all, I would have never thought of this ever happening.
How do you find friends in clubs, let alone a lover from such places.

However, i tend to be the lucky one?
I got a wonderful group of friends, bring much laughters into my life.
A superb bf whom make me feel like i am the luckest girl on earth.

Anyone can say i am silly/dumb enough to get into a relationship with a NS man, who is not going to be 24/7 for me for the next 1year 10months.
He can't give me everything, but just a phonecall whenever he can, and spending his pathetic weekends with me.

But i can't lie to myself. I got to accept the fact, despite everything was so sudden.
And we actually got together on his enlistment date.
I know this love journey is going to be tough, real tough.
Darling, i am more than willing to go through all these with you.

I know we got to face separation from the first day.
I know the consequences of being together with a NS man.
I know you might be heading to united states to pursue your future.
I know, you've alot of suitors, perhaps one day, you might just leave me for good.
I know, i'll face alot of negative/fugly comments from people.

Life's too fragile for me to consider anything. I just want to follow my heart. I can't be bother to face the factors, i just love you, just want to keep you by my side. I don't want to have regrets in my life.

I dare not say, we'll have the most loving relationship ever, i dare not say we'll last, i dare not say we'll eventually end up getting married. But, we'll definately have the best moments and memories in life with each other's presence.

Yes, i am so grateful to god, for bringing someone so special into my life.

Darling, thank you for spending your only weekends with me.
thank you for bringing so much joy into my life.
thank you for all your hugs when i am feeling down.
thank you for all your sweet kisses.
thank you for all your sweet messages.
thank you for all your little surprises, even it is just a sms from you, it warms up my heart.
thank you for all your treats.
thank you for spending time to help me out with projects.
thank you for all the time spent with me despite you're damn sick and tired.
thank you for all the phone calls from faraway tekong.
thank you for willing to lose your pride, collecting phonecards from everyone, standing at the phone booth alone just to call me up every night during your confinment period.
thank you for all your motivating sms telling me to study hard.
thank you for allowing me to send you off to camp & wait for you to book out.
thank you for asking your family to take care of me when you're not there.
thank you for all your care & concern.
thank you for all your sacastic statements that made me happy.
thank you for all your honeyed words, i refused to believe them, until you told me, you seriously meant it right from your heart.
thank you for missing me so much in your camp.
thank you for all your touching blog posts and comments.
thank you for leaving a space for me to occupied your heart.
thank you for all the trust & believing in me.
thank you for loving me with all your heart.
thank you for everything :)

I am just a average girl, not pretty, nothing special.
I can't imagine how much you can love me with your heart.
That day, when me and your family send you off to camp, i can feel how much you can't bear to leave us.
I am on the verge of tearing, but i hold back them, i know, you won't want to see that.

Darling, i'll cherish every single moment spent with you because it doesn't come easy to spent some time with you, even it is just a minute.
I'll anticipate to every weekends, because thats the only time i can see you, hug you.
I'll be awaiting to 9pm every night, because thats the only time i can hear your voice, hearing your voice, knowing that you're safe & sound, just made my day.
I'll be waiting for you to finish your army, no matter how long it takes.
I believe, distance is not the greatest fear. No matter how far the distance is, be it tekong or some other camps, our hearts will be linked together.

Darling, we'll go through all the tough times together.
I'll be there for you even when the world’s stop turning.
I'll be waiting for you.
I'll not leave your side.
I'll be loving you with all my heart.
This is a promise i made to you.

Believe me, i'll keep the love going.
I love you Jason Chua, my sweetest boy ever.
I just can't stop loving you.


I am very contented with my life now. It has never be so fulfilled before. With my dearest family, Jason Darling, Class clique, Alrite clique & not forgetting my 5a'2006.


Life is indeed very fragile. Nobody knows whats going to happen the next minute. I came across caiwei's blog, i cried after reading her posts. Yeewen, i seriously envy you for having such a good friend, I know you must be very gald to know that. You'll always be that sweet & petite girl in our mind. RIP. Its time for me to learn to cherish people in my life.

Sweetest boy.

Headed down to changi airport's sakaesushi to celebrate dearest aaron didi's bd with the usual click, which always nv failed to made my day :)




The three lady, colour code checked


Verlynn, me and bd boy




The couple, me and ivan


Me and ms colour's boss



Me and love






The clique :D



Candids




Its another fresh new week for Darling. It was midnight movie, house-visit, hongkong cafe, miss clarity, soccer @ thecage and stayover this week.
I was really impressed with the way he played soccer.
I was really surprised when i received "i love you darling", when he was just like sitting opposite me.
I was so touched when he actually insisted to accompany me when he's alr damn sick and drained out.
It was so heartache to see u falling sick, coughing all day. If i could, i would want myself to be sick in place of you, seriously.
I hope all the remedies i bought wil hlp. Darling, pls take care of urself.
Thanks for ur warm hugs when i really need someone to be there for me.
U're the one running through my mind every single minute.
U're the sweetest boy ever.

just my thoughts:
I know ppl disapprove and think negatively of our relationship. I know ppl commented me behind my back. Having Jason by my side is more than enough. I am v contented with my current life, with Jason, my family, class clique, alrite clique staying by my side. I can't possible control everything. I just hope that, u guys can be fair to Jason. He doesn't owe anyone anything. He is my bf, my one and only bf. Pls respect and accept the fact that he is my bf. I will greatly appreciated it :)

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juju: Haha, i believe u can do it as well :) its a matter of willing anot. Lol.
`yan`: u got wl stil jealous for what? Haha.
bobby: so u're v creative lah? isit? PIG LUNGS. Damn creative. HAHA.
Ivan: Thanks ivan!
jas & bobby: He indeed looked like his dad, and frank says, i look like his mum -.-
willson: Thanks da ge! Haha. Dun be so mean to DT. If she bully me, send me her portfolio. LOL!
kat: yup kat! thanks for informing me earlier on :D love.