Black & White

This love doesn't comes easy.
It made me realized that, falling in love, isn't just a 2persons affair.



Void the long & wordy post.
What i want to express in words, can be simply summarized into one word.



Je t'aime.
I was touched by the night, you ran all the way to my house from your house.
I'll always remember what you've told me that night.
Thank you for all the silly things you've done just to make me smile.
You're too good to be true.

This song is for you.
EVERYTHING

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to see.

And you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah


Just for laugh


My yoga master :D

Liverpool FTW!
ManU wasn't their match, Chelsea ran out of luck, what's next?

My birthday arriving in 3days!

Another 19 in my list.

Love finally turned 19, & it gonna be my turn next sunday :)

To think back, the first time we met each other was in nyp auditorium, she was busy sms-ing all the way, wear the primary sch shoe and a nike bag.
Why can i remembered so vividly? Because she sat beside me all along :)
Never knew that, 1 and a half years down the road, she gonna be my bestie in poly, with the class clique.
She was with me when i was feeling down, depressed & miserable.
She was one in a million, who always shared similar thoughts as me.
Thank you for everything Verlynn. & i hope everything will go smooth for you in life, everlasting love with juju :)

Can't wait to see you tml :)
Long weekends gonna be so great, with you around.
Xoxo.

Another week gone

A super short & random update.

1)School was pretty bored.

2)The modules ain't interesting, at all.
Programming, networking, animation, security, accounting.

3)I fucking made my Darling so upset on a sat morning. Im sorry dearest :(

4)Hit town on weekends with alrite clique, with jac & clarissa as well.

5)Visited my poor cousin whom was admitted into NUH because of the bike accident & fuck that bastard, who claims that he didn't fetch her. Get well soon mei.
Please people, drive safely, this is no kidding matter.

6)Me and Darling are super frightened today, its really the shock of my life.

7)All thanks to Darling, for nominating me in HG. Thanks ah idiot.

8)Darling & I saved 3bucks for a smaller umbrella, getting ourselves wet, singing and shivering in the rain.

9)Thanks Ilham for the costume that i borrowed for Darling.

10)Sent Darling back to his camp, a lonely journey home from choa chu kang all the way back home :(

11)Verlynn's birthday on fri.

12)My 19th birthday in 12days' time.

I love you Darling and i'll miss you like fuck again.
Thanks to all, who're always by my side, whenever my bf is not there. I love you guys.

Emotional

I came across this blog entry, written on 9july'08.

I don’t like to fall in love.
Nothing has ever worked out for me.
But I can’t deny that I’ve fallen for her.
She was just supposed to be another random girl.
You’re not supposed to fall in love just before enlisting.
It is illogical, irrational, stupid, reckless and potentially hurting.
But how do you not fall for someone that’s made you so happy, made you smile a real smile?
I’ve went out on so many dates with different people in the past few years, and her hands are the only one I’ve held.
Because it feels different this time.
I’ve not looked forward to seeing someone in a really long while.
Past dates felt cold; Past dates gave me the “I’m single and you’re single, let’s go out” kind of feeling, no matter how warm the girl was.
But she makes me feel so happy.
She’s so damn sweet sometimes I just want to hug her and never let go.
It really helped a lot when she told me, it’s just hair, you’re still you.
For someone as narcissistic and insecure of his looks, shaving the hair that covers your face is almost tantamount to suicide.
But she makes it all feel better.
If my world was black and white, cold and miserable back then, she has definitely filled it up with colours and warmth.
I don’t know if this arrangement is Fate’s cruel joke, because this is perhaps the worst timing for anything to ever happen.
I won’t blame her if she doesn’t want to fall for someone she’s just known for three weeks, someone who’s probably not going to be there much for almost two years.
It almost feels too selfish.
But I am thankful.
Because even if you have thought that I was playing around all along and played along with me, you did make me happy.
For the hugs,
For letting me hold your hand,
For spending time with me even though I know you’re so tired,
For cheering me up when I’m down,
For all the dinner treats,
For all the times you make me feel loved,
For making me happy,
For just being here,
Thank you.
I don’t know what’s going to happen, but dearie, thank you for everything.
I’m really going to miss you bad when I’m inside.
I love you dearie,
I mean it.

And, i am tearing now like a idiot.
I guess, its just the emotional part acting up again.
I really miss you alot Darling.

p.s All the best for your down pes results :) i love you.

When i am with you, my world only revolves around you.

Caught Eagle Eye with Darling, and its good, movie lined up with good storyline & effects.
Last minute decision for phuture with Bobby Dehui Nic Jz Kat together with Darling.
Coincidently, Whit Jean Ade & Felica was there too :) It was a great night, except that the music was kinda wacked that night.




Darling :)


Bobby, i photoshoped it alr, please don't leak my secrets out! Otherwise ... Topshop ...




Jean Me Katrine


Jean Katrine




Jean Me :D

When i switched on my laptop this morning, a dialog box appeared in my screen. It was a message from darling.
To be true, I was pretty surprised and touched. He actually wrote down the message on a pathetic small piece of paper in the camp.

Message for you,
Silly boy, i can understand how you feel totally.
You're not alone, I am always here for you, be with you.
If things goes smoothly, I am happy for you. If it doesn't, don't get discourage, you still have your family, your friends, and me to look forward to.
Don't be so silly & get so tense up okay!
I love you so much, Jason chua.

Ma petit amie j'aime

You have always been so sweet, so nice and everything.
You are always my silly boy, my sweetest boy, my Darling.



I am sucha fool for you.
Je t'aime.

A short one

Today is a day with my classmates. bobby jaselin and shermaine. Basically is just window shopping around.





Its damn gorgeous i swear.
& i miss my Darling soooooooooooooooo mucccchhhhhhhhh!

Cookie monster

Had a double date with Verlynn and Juju on friday. It was pretty fun, and thank you Juju for driving us around :) We had canele for dinner, went to bedok market for supper, and back to Darling's place to chill.








I bought Darling a hello kitty balloon & i made him walked around town with that balloon & my chanel bag. Haha. He was pretty awkward lah, but he still gave in to me :)



Met up with the alrite clique on sat. Me darling jaselin frank nic corinne bobby :)
We went to amk for dinner, aftermaths bobby drove us to pasir ris park, east coast, carparkH (where couples will make out in the cars), thecathay, then home sweet home.
I actually enjoyed strolling in the park hands in hands, eating ice cream, the piggyback challenge(where the bf will piggyback the gf and run), the running competition and all.


Random card i made for Darling :)

Surprise succeed Darling! Haha. This silly boy, surprised me with the random programs he made to my laptop. No doubt he is a IT whizz kid.
And right now, i am missing him so much :(
Its getting from bad to worst each week. I really dislike the journey back home from the choa chu kang station, just can't keep my mind of that silly boy, just feel like tearing like a idiot :(

Featuring alrite clique

September has been a great month for me, with the exception of some hypocrites which is not worth mentioning anymore.
For the past few weeks, i've been spending quality time with Darling and my family & im happy about it.



But at times i still miss my 2 favourite girls ;
Katrine, busy working and partying as usual.
Samantha, who vanished from my life for almost a year :(

This post is going to be random & hilarious with photos (credits to jaselin).


Frank, Jaselin's bf, my bf's hyung. He named himself Show Ang, because he is a full time supporter of Show. A boy-band member, which consist of Jason and Nic. Basically a nice guy, a nice bf who doesn't mind throwing away his pride to make his gf happy.



Renee, my friend for 7years. Another party queen to-be with Katrine.

Marcus, my xiao shuai ge :) A deep thinker, a friend who will be there for me, giving me valuable advices, teaching me how to see things in different aspects. I swear he is very smart, and i miss chatting with you till late night! A very devoted person. Don't lose hope okay, you'll meet your right one, one day.



Jaselin, my lapsap da jie. Frank's gf. I guess, my life will be lack of laughters without her around.

Katrine, my lovely gf. Party queen. If it wasn't her, i won't get to know the alrite clique.



Jaselin put me on a elephant body because nic says i laugh like a elephant. Haha. I totally got no idea why lah. But its very nice of her to put me on a cute elephant body. (scroll down further & u'll know why she is kind enough)



Nic, a national breaker. I always think he got a kind of "seh" within him that cannot be explain. Another hyung with my bf, i bet they share every dirty little secrets together. A humorous person, which never fails to add laughters in the clique. He taught me how to determine a person's ****'s size by looking at his face. HAHA (opps darling).



Boon wee, they called him bobby, which sounds like a dog's name. He's a very nice guy who always drive us home one by one, no doubt a good driver. He is the first guy from the alrite clique to mgs me on friendster :) I remembered, he used to blog that he hope Jason & Frank can find their true love, and now they did. So... You're next right? All the best, because i admire your steadiness :D Jaselin is very kind to him also, he is suppose to be a elwood not bulldog.



Jason, my dearest darling. He is as hairy as a bear, HAHA. I am going to give him a waxing session soon. I don't know how to describe him, because no matter how ugly, how bad, how disgusting he is to you, to others, i'll always think that he is the best in the world. He is my sweetest boy :)



Junzhang. He is our Singapore Poly hey gorgeous! contestant M3. He is a Mr Nice, in fact, very nice to everyone. He sacrificed his sleep to coach me computing maths at 5am in the morning. Bro, you deserve a very nice gf seriously, hope you can find your right one soon okay! I'll be happy for you :) I really can't stop laughing at this photo man. Im sorry bro!


It is so surprising how we got to met the clique in that kind of situation. Under that kind of circumstances, we became friends, close friends, and even involved in a relationship.
This is so amazing. If this is fate's decision, this will be probably one of my luckiest fate in my life.
You guys are great, and i love everyone of you :)

The world is just unfair, i tried to figure out why, but it comes to no avail.
Some people, they gain, and keep gaining the amount of friends.
For me, i gain some, but i also lost some also.
But i rather, have a very few good friends than having alot of friends which are just actors in front of you, which i am very glad that i have several good friends. Can't deny that the reality is ugly and humans are selfish. You just got to learn from it.

School's reopening soon. Can't wait to get back to school and see my classmates. Some's workaholic during holidays, 1 got into a new realtionship, some are full time gamers, some like to nua at home, 2 got a new cell... I miss you guys!
i have alot of items in my wishlist that was still unfulfil, any nice souls?